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Thursday, December 02, 2004
 
Re: Dry Spell

I whined about being a born again virgin. Cracker had a couple of good points in the comments. Since no one ever leaves comments, I will assume that you don't read them either and will thus re-type them for you and thus reinforce the fact that you don't need to leave comments in the first place. Fuck.

I do wish that you would leave comments. Or send an email. Or call. Fuck you (unless you left a comment or emailed or called or came to visit or invited me to visit or couldn't afford to come and visit).

He comments, "I noticed at a party the other night why I tend not to go home with the women I want. They're all in play, and I don't like to compete for them because it generally entails having to interact with lots of dumb guys to get a shot at the chick. We're the subjects, and they're the objects (thanks Jim Goad). Even if I'm getting good signals, I still bow out of all the work and BS. This is to my detriment, and I have to change my lazy/bitchy thinking."

That is for fucking sure. For whatever reason, I feel like a relationship isn't something I should have to bargain or barter for. It should happen and be romantic and be easy and be beautiful.

No. I don't expect that situation out of any even moderately long term relationship, but that's how it should start. If it's never good -- if it never starts good at the beginning -- then what will ever sustain the relationship as the bodies and minds grow old?

So I am sure as hell not gonna fight a bunch of stupid NASCAR jox for your hand early on. Fuck that. If you can't see in two seconds that I'm better than left turns (or are they right?), then I don't even want yo' digits. Fuck you.

He further comments, "... is a dry spell really cause for alarm? Or is it just a byproduct of lame behaviors? Something else? Pussy is out there if you're just looking for pussy. The idea of suicide seems like it would be a reaction to rejection, but I would point out the decision not to leave the house is an implicit rejection of anyone you might meet. If suicide is just an admission that women aren't worth the trouble, masturbation is a better answer."

Suicide isn't the response to rejection; it is the response to hopelessness. There comes a point when you realize if the biological imperative isn't what is driving your existence, then you must question what is driving your existence. If the answer is null, then what is the appropriate response? How long can I wait for an alternate answer?