A Post

As you can surely tell from my lack of posting, I am again struggling mightily with whether or not to maintain this hobby. I was sure surprised to check my stats this evening and find a fair number of hits over the past two days although it appears that most of you are here looking for pictures of Aimee Deep.

I am returned from my marvelous vacation. While off on my sailing adventure, I kept a brief log to remind me of where we went and what we did and what I saw. Each day it seemed that my entries got a little longer. Soon I was basically writing a diary. I found myself inking thoughts that I would never share here on the blog. It started to become an interesting analysis - if not over analysis - of my thoughts.

And perhaps that is my problem / one of my problems. No thought or feeling is ever just there. I have to look back and examine it and wonder what in my background or upbringing caused or allowed me to think or feel such a thing. I could readily sense that my travel log was turning into some sort of diary of self-analysis or self-psychoanalysis. I found it to be rather cathartic to put into writing thoughts that I would not otherwise share here or with another person. It made me wonder whether a diary might be a more proper outlet for my writings and thoughts.

I started an anonymous blog a few months ago that I was going to try and write these sort of thoughts in, but I never quite got around to the actual writing. I know I should write more. I know that structured writing helps to organize my thoughts and helps to keep me sharp and analytical. Still, it's hard when there is no incentive other than seeing all the 1's and 0's come together with a title and time stamp. I still want to write, and I still want to keep this blog, but I also think I want to write or somehow share more personal things that I won't expose on the blog ( -- you know: hopes, fears, dreams, all that nonsense).

I'll figure out some compromise. But for now, I think you should go here to check out pictures of the young, bright, and beautiful Aimee Deep.

Jonathan 6/02/2003 11:37:00 PM