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Monday, August 19, 2002
 
Birthday Wishes

If the Hyena had comments on his blog, you could leave him kind words there, but he doesn't. Happy 30th!

I did not like turning 30 very much. For the 6 months or so leading up to it, I was pretty unhappy about the impending date in a vague sort of way. Now 8 months into it, I'm not sure I like it a whole lot more. Being 30 and underemployed and subsequently unemployed is depressing. I know I spend too much time comparing myself with my father, but it still bothers me greatly that at my age he was already married with 2 kids and was already the president of a hospital. Me? Well, at least I own my own house and car, but otherwise things have not gone well.

30 to me feels like an age where it may now be too late to do anything about my lot in life. That's stupid, of course, but I do have a hard time overcoming that feeling. Hell, Terrell Davis is retiring today as a millionaire, and he is not even 30 yet. I'm not sure what that has to do with anything. I guess that the older I get the more I am sensitive to the accomplishments of those younger than I or those who had great feats under their belt by the time they were my age. I am no longer certain that my best days lie ahead of me, and that is very depressing to me.

Well, enough of my whining. This is the Hyena's day. Happy birthday! I'll drink one to your health and to a year ahead filled with successes and happiness not yet witnessed in 30 years. Cheers!